September is always a fun month. The beginning of the football season, school semester, and cooler nights. Fall is the end of some life...trees begin to lose their leaves, butterflies no longer flutter around the flowers, bikini's are retired for next spring, etc.
However, some cannot handle change, especially if they are the ones who caused the change. Is it just me...but are some people in total denial of their role in life? The friction they cause, the emotional pain, constant blaming? Unfortunately, with all other life's ups and downs, I am dealing with an emotional wreck of a person who I thought was a (distant) friend. Now...I have learned that this person was never a friend, but a user who likes to take advantage of one's kindness. Twists things around, makes up things and events, blames everything on everyone else, and then tried to be nice & understanding, then returned to the violence and abusive behavior. I believe this is some type of bi-polar behavior.
This weekend I just locked myself away in my little cottage by the beach trying to escape the nutty behavior of others. However, there is the cyber stalking abilities....emails, text messages, voice mail messages, IM's, etc. What a shame that people are strange and don't see how much of their lives they are wasting doing such tactics.
I pray for individuals who have nothing better to do than to irritate the fuck out of others. I pray for individuals who have no life. I pray that people with addictions get help. I pray that the economy improves. I pray that this year will end with more happiness than it started.
Individuals must take control of their lives, their happiness, their health, and choose their friends more carefully. Don't ever assume you know ANYONE! More than likely, you don't.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Summer's Ending
Another season here and gone. More family drama that is too unbearable to handle. Trying to put life in perspective that things come and go, there is constant change in our lives. Such as the seasons, we know what we can expect for spring/summer/winter/fall and we prepare the best we can. I am sure we have all learned that some days are hotter/wetter/colder/breezier than we had anticipated.
Last night I tried to calm myself to evaluate my life and what I can anticipate and how I can better prepare myself to handle life's unpredictable seasons.
Life is short -- life is fun -- life should be enjoyed by all.
Handle what you can and learn to put the things you are not able to handle on the back burner. Your health is most important.
Last night I tried to calm myself to evaluate my life and what I can anticipate and how I can better prepare myself to handle life's unpredictable seasons.
Life is short -- life is fun -- life should be enjoyed by all.
Handle what you can and learn to put the things you are not able to handle on the back burner. Your health is most important.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Attitude of Graditude
For the past year (or so) I have been so overwhelmed with my graduate studies, new condo/construction, transition of the move(s), work, the economy, family affairs, friends (or not so friends), and every day dilemmas.
However, this weekend I did a lot of thinking, soul searching, and it has been very enlightening.
I am learning that I have a lot to be grateful for and I need to focus on these things and not so much on the negative/depressing things going on around me.
I want to change my life for the better. It seems I did "OK" with last year, but it is time to move on and get back on track with my life.
I used to wake up early to exercise. This has depressed me that not only am I not waking up to exercise, but I am dreading getting out of bed. I live in PARADISE! Why do I feel this way? At this time, I have been in cutesy condo since June, 2009, and I still have not taken advantage that my front yard is a playground. I live on the ocean. There are boats, kayaks, runners, bikers, skaters just right outside my front door. Why am I not out there? This is so unlike me.
Well, I have set ALL alarms to go off early. In addition, I have set up the coffee pot. Yes, me, a domestic chore of some sort. I think if the coffee is brewing and then the alarms go off I should get up without hating life too much.
Secondly, I took my daughter, her boyfriend, and my beautiful granddaughter to breakfast. Of course, daughter/boyfriend were high. Granddaughter acts up because of her parents behavior. Everything is chaos...as always. Typical.
A colleague of mine just happened to be driving through town and text to meet me. I replied that I was out with the family having breakfast and he was welcome to come join us. While there, the daughter/boyfriend are drinking and going outside often to smoke, and at one point daughter spills her mimosa and all over the table, my friend and broke the glass.
Regardless....my friend looked at me and said "I wish I was a grand parent." Look how much your granddaughter loves you and you are young enough to do things with her (I had run a half marathon with her before breakfast). He continued to say that his dad was in his 80's when he and his wife had their only son and that his dad never did anything with him. Now, (my friend) is in his early 60's and his son is in his 2nd year in college, on the east coast, and not in a serious relationship.
I was a very young (single) mother, my daughter was a young mother, and I am a extremely young (hot) grandma'ma ;-)
After a weekend of just thinking why why why...my mind just finally said but what about this, this, and this.
I have more to be thankful for than not. My family is not perfect, but I am glad to have them. My job is not the dream job, but at least I have a job. My home may not be complete, but it is in paradise.
So, I have this blog to encourage positive thinking and I realize that I am the one who really needs the encouragement. Guess what I am saying is all of us if we write down the pros and cons in our lives that all will realize what I did this weekend. Our lists will probably show that we have more to be grateful for in our lives than not.
I know there are days and situations that our visions will be clouded with all the day-to-day BS --- but ultimately, if we can get a glimpse of the bigger picture there will be a sun shining upon us all.
However, this weekend I did a lot of thinking, soul searching, and it has been very enlightening.
I am learning that I have a lot to be grateful for and I need to focus on these things and not so much on the negative/depressing things going on around me.
I want to change my life for the better. It seems I did "OK" with last year, but it is time to move on and get back on track with my life.
I used to wake up early to exercise. This has depressed me that not only am I not waking up to exercise, but I am dreading getting out of bed. I live in PARADISE! Why do I feel this way? At this time, I have been in cutesy condo since June, 2009, and I still have not taken advantage that my front yard is a playground. I live on the ocean. There are boats, kayaks, runners, bikers, skaters just right outside my front door. Why am I not out there? This is so unlike me.
Well, I have set ALL alarms to go off early. In addition, I have set up the coffee pot. Yes, me, a domestic chore of some sort. I think if the coffee is brewing and then the alarms go off I should get up without hating life too much.
Secondly, I took my daughter, her boyfriend, and my beautiful granddaughter to breakfast. Of course, daughter/boyfriend were high. Granddaughter acts up because of her parents behavior. Everything is chaos...as always. Typical.
A colleague of mine just happened to be driving through town and text to meet me. I replied that I was out with the family having breakfast and he was welcome to come join us. While there, the daughter/boyfriend are drinking and going outside often to smoke, and at one point daughter spills her mimosa and all over the table, my friend and broke the glass.
Regardless....my friend looked at me and said "I wish I was a grand parent." Look how much your granddaughter loves you and you are young enough to do things with her (I had run a half marathon with her before breakfast). He continued to say that his dad was in his 80's when he and his wife had their only son and that his dad never did anything with him. Now, (my friend) is in his early 60's and his son is in his 2nd year in college, on the east coast, and not in a serious relationship.
I was a very young (single) mother, my daughter was a young mother, and I am a extremely young (hot) grandma'ma ;-)
After a weekend of just thinking why why why...my mind just finally said but what about this, this, and this.
I have more to be thankful for than not. My family is not perfect, but I am glad to have them. My job is not the dream job, but at least I have a job. My home may not be complete, but it is in paradise.
So, I have this blog to encourage positive thinking and I realize that I am the one who really needs the encouragement. Guess what I am saying is all of us if we write down the pros and cons in our lives that all will realize what I did this weekend. Our lists will probably show that we have more to be grateful for in our lives than not.
I know there are days and situations that our visions will be clouded with all the day-to-day BS --- but ultimately, if we can get a glimpse of the bigger picture there will be a sun shining upon us all.
Monday, February 8, 2010
February - A month for GOALS!
It is already February 2010. It seems like yesterday I was dealing with some type of holiday depression. Every year I give up something for Lent with my girlfriend. I am Jewish and she is Catholic. This year, I am giving up alcohol for the six-week time frame. I have been working up my excitement for this event. I have told people, so they can watch me, and I have already promised friends that I would be their designated driver.
I believe that having goals makes one look forward to something -- regardless what it is. Like starting a diet, one probably has an outfit that they are eyeing. Maybe learning a new trait for a new career. Or volunteering to see if one may want animals, etc. Life can be great, especially when one has goals to look forward to.
If you feel that giving up something for 40 days and 40 nights is too much, try a weekend fast, or a phone call to apologize or keep in contact with a friend or family member. These things will make you feel a lot better.
I believe that having goals makes one look forward to something -- regardless what it is. Like starting a diet, one probably has an outfit that they are eyeing. Maybe learning a new trait for a new career. Or volunteering to see if one may want animals, etc. Life can be great, especially when one has goals to look forward to.
If you feel that giving up something for 40 days and 40 nights is too much, try a weekend fast, or a phone call to apologize or keep in contact with a friend or family member. These things will make you feel a lot better.
Friday, January 8, 2010
2010 Will this year be better?
2009 has ended. I am sure I am not the only one praying that 2010 will bring us much health, happiness, and fortune. Life is still very unsure in my neck of the woods. But, I am trying to be positive. I have not established any new years' resolutions, promises, etc. For some reason, I don't believe it yearly resolutions, only weekly ones. Next week, I hope to start doing 100 sit ups, 20 push ups, and work out with my hand weights each day. This is just a little goal that I hope to achieve. I would like to also keep up my journal that I have not written in since October 19, 2009.
In addition to the work outs and keeping tabs on my thoughts and feelings, I want to start attending Temple EVERY Friday. I have plans of going tonight and went last week. But, baby steps are the key to success. If you stumble, get up and go again. You don't fall as far when you focus on baby steps.
I wish everyone who reads this blogs learns to focus on themselves. If one does not love themself they are unable to push forward to achieve their goals and dreams.
I have a goal. I have a dream. I have my health.
:) Let's all be positive that 2010 will bring us much happiness.
In addition to the work outs and keeping tabs on my thoughts and feelings, I want to start attending Temple EVERY Friday. I have plans of going tonight and went last week. But, baby steps are the key to success. If you stumble, get up and go again. You don't fall as far when you focus on baby steps.
I wish everyone who reads this blogs learns to focus on themselves. If one does not love themself they are unable to push forward to achieve their goals and dreams.
I have a goal. I have a dream. I have my health.
:) Let's all be positive that 2010 will bring us much happiness.
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